we quarrelled again and why am i not surprised? typical scene at typical times.

It is as if there is this evil spell casted upon us. Not once we could all spend a day joyously and peacefully.

And what makes it worse...it seems like it is all my fault. 

Can't wait till i am older and financially strong enough to leave this horrid place.

This place that had given me the worse teenage years.

I tried ok. Nobody can accuse me of not trying. 

But does that even matter?

I feel so lonely and unwanted.

Who says children who come from parents that are well to do are lucky and happy?

If i am allowed to choose, i would choose a family that survives on the father's taxi.

At least we can take hardship together and bond.

We are like two parallel lines never ever going to meet.

I feel abandoned.

I want to be loved. 

i came to realise a something when i was in the shower that day

humans would always believe juicy lies and gossips rather then old boring reality.

agree with me?

haha

that's it for today's brenda's ren shen zhe li.

stay tune for more!

haha. crap la i.

=]

roses

Red Roses: Love and Romance

Black Roses: Vengeance

Blue Roses: Mystery And Intrigue

Pink Roses: Gratitude And Appreciation

Purple Roses: Love At First Sight

White Roses: Innocence And Purity

Green Roses: Fertility

Yellow Roses: Joy And Friendship

Lavender Roses: Enchantment

Orange Roses: Enthusiasm, Passion

flowers

Roses: Love

Orchids: A Belle

Iris: My Compliments

Daisies: Innocence

Tulips: Declaration Of Love

Calla Lily: Beauty

Amaryllis: Splendid Beauty

Hydrangea: Heartfelt

Anthurium:  Hospitality

Daffodils: Chivalry

Chrysanthemums: Fidelity

Carnations: Pride And Beauty

Lilacs: Youthful Innocence

Birds Of Paradise: Joyfulness

Tiger Lily: Wealth, Pride

Peony: Bashful

Anemone: Anticipation

Sunflowers: Pure thoughts (my favourite! =D)

Aster: Patience

Gladiolus: Strength O Character

woah.lets see.hmmm.it had been months since i last updated??

haha

yeah that's right.i have been lazy.heehee.

ok..to update all what i have been doing after disappearing for so long, i have been slacking.

haha.you heard me right, i have been slacking.heehee.

anyway...i bought my new macbook and how i love it!!

gosh.haha.

i had been approached by create talents that jia and qun had been too before.

They offered to take me in as their model but with a condition.

that is to pay for my own portfolio for the price of $470.

36 photos, 3 outfits. Casual, bridal and own style.

make up and hair styling all included.

would also have a copy on my own.

should i go for it?

haha