i want my old self back

i sat on the bus and reflected on a lot of things

i realized that i have been stupid

crazy

dreaming too much on glamour

which isn't me at all.

i used to look at those pretty girls and envy them

and tried to be like them

got obsessed

then now i realized,

i don't want any of these

this not the lifestyle i desire

i want my old and decent lifestyle back

i want to be the Innocent,know nothing brenda back

which i know it is impossible

cause information fed to you isn't that easy to erase

sigh

i am going to go back to old self and am striving very hard for it

i..

sigh

really don't know what to say man....