Saturday, May 31, 2008

GIVE ME A BIG SMILE PPL!




lame -.-

ROFL
saw this random pic i took the other day

look really ugly but i felt like posting it here

well here goes nothing

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guess i was too bored

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Friday, May 30, 2008

friendship

FUCK

I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU DID THIS TO ME

SO MUCH FOR BEING GIRLFRIENDS

I TRUSTED YOU WITH SO MANY THINGS

AND THIS IS WHAT YOU DO TO ME!?!?

TALK BEHIND MY BACK

TELL GUYS THAT I AM SLUTTY

WHERE THE FUCK DID I OFFEND YOU

I EVEN TALKED SO NICELY OF YOU TO OTHER GUYS

EVEN TO LEONARD I SAY YOU ARE SO WORTH MAKING FRIENDS

AND YOU DO THIS FUCKING THING TO ME

I AM SO DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU

Thursday, May 29, 2008

random

Zzzz

I am stressed.

and sleepy.

I just finished my part for the group,

now free to come blog.

Let me see,

WOAH

MY LAST FEW POSTS ARE SO EMO MAN!

ok.

enough of emoing

reliased that 开心是一天,不开心也是一天。倒不如开开心心过生活。

I totally don't bother what people think and look of me already.

I shall be whatever I want to be.

I shall do whatever I want to do.

Be so obidennt for what?

In the end, you still get bullied.

Just live each day like you never lived it before.

Do all the crazy things you always wanted to do but did not dared to do.

I jolly well know my drastic change is going to affect what my friends think of me.

Well maybe it already had.

but whatever,

Like I once put on my msn nick,

I care no more.

Time passes,

Things change.

People chamge.

I am no different.


P.S. I am really happy to have great friends around. Although there are those who are really fair weather ones. But i am grateful to have real wonderful ones. Thanks :D

P.S.S. OFFICIALLY GAVE UP ON RELATIONSHIPS. SHALL DIE A VIRGIN.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Damn fcuked up and du lan now.

FED UP READY.

OK

I CONFESS

I LIKE YOU I LIKE YOU LIKE YOU

I admit I did not like you at first

BUT I LIKED YOU LATER.

I am not trying to prove anything here.

Just want to tell you,

I had ONCE liked you

But now,

Heart is numb.

feel anger instead of pain.

People,

don't ask me who is this person.

The person himself should know.

I guess he won't know even read this post.

But if there is a chance he does.

I DON'T CARE.

Just leave me alone.

Call me emo kia whatever,

I DON'T CARE.
knew it.

knew it.

knew it.

knew it.

fcuk sia

tearing

damn my stupid judgement

am always liking the wrong person

felt no pain

but i am tearing like non stop

stupid right?

knew it.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

drama

sigh

tonight so drama ma ma tonight la.

syafiq was angry with me for seeking advice from hadi but not telling him directly.

I AM REALLY SORRY SYAFIQ!

I am really not use to being so close to a guy other than my bf.

not that I have one la.

feeling mixed feelings now.

talked to many people tonight.

including.........

sigh.

I don't know la.

Already gave up on finding out what he is thinking.

To think that they say girls are difficult to understand.

Guys are equally difficult to understand.

He shows no interest,

neither should I.

It shall all be over less than 2 month's time.

patiently waiting for that time to come.

don't know how will I react when the time comes.

numb?

maybe ba.

HAI YA

damn irritated ready.

Don't always think about him la.

I don't believe don't have him will die.

shall prove that point.

Just wait and see ba.

I will forget you.

I am tired of waiting ready.

Monday, May 19, 2008

sunday

TOMORROW IS SCHOOL DAY!!

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO SCHOOL!!

SO BORED AT HOME CAN!?!?

THANKS FOR REMEMBERING! :D

you made my day :D

Saturday, May 17, 2008

saturday

Just reached home not long ago.

Went to ochard with Andy and his friend.

Concluded that he is really worse than a girl when it comes to shopping.

Take so long to decide.

And $30 ++ for a T-shirt is CHEAP!?!?

wth

The stuff I use are just all market stuff that cost the most $20 ++ la.

sigh.

I can't believe I am saying this.

But I miss him.

Wonder whether he missed me?

hmm..

Most probably not.

Did not even recieve a reply from him.

LOL

Okay la.

Don't keep thinking of him.

I shall live my life for myself.

But I would be nice if he is part of it.

Oh well.

LOL

I CRAVE FOR CHOCOLATE STRAWBERRIES!! :D
I cannot believe I am up so early in the morning blogging before going for work.

But something troubled me since last night and I was not able to sleep well again.

Maybe it was a bad idea to agree to hs's birthday party yesterday.

Maybe it was not.

I know the risk of posting this blog post here today.

And I also know you all would have every single access to this blog post.

But I am truly disappointed to not write this entry.

I tried to believe what you told me kb,

about you being decent.

However, yesterday when we went to fetch my "mummy",

which is in geylang,

you all start talking about prostitutes and your past experiences.

you all have totally changed my impressions of you all last night in the car.

you know how much i wanted to get off the car that instant?

I swear I was really tired last night and excused myself.

but somehow listening to you all's conversation in geylang adds to my urge of leaving.

truly disappointed.

now i understand why my classmates says I have low EQ

my judgement definitely have some fault.

sigh

Thursday, May 15, 2008

I FINALLY GOT MY HAIR HIGHLIGHTED!!

IT IS DARN NICE CAN!!

got scolded for doing Rj in julie tan's class.

she said i have low EQ.

then heard from someone else that i have low EQ too.

then heard from the same someone that people in class thinks that i have low EQ too.

do i really have low EQ!?

whatever la.

Don't care.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

guys

1.Guys hate sluts even though they
have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if
you've slept with more than 6
guys..you're a HOE)

2.Guys may be flirting around all day
but before they go to sleep, they
always think about the girl they truly
care about.

3.Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4.Guys will do anything just to get
you to notice him

5.Guys hate it when you talk about
your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest.

6.Boyfriends need to be reassured
often that they're still loved.

7.Don't talk about your guy friends to
your boyfriend.

8.Guys get jealous easily.

9.Guys are more emotional than they'd
like people to think.

10.Giving a guy a hanging message
like "You know
what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make
him jump to a conclusion that is far
from what you are thinking. And he'll
assume he did something wrong and
he'll obsess about it trying to figure
it out.

11.Guys are good flatterers when
courting but they usually stammer when
they talk to a girl they really like.

12.A usual act that proves that the guy
likes you is when he teases you.

13.Guys love you more than you love
them if they are serious in your
relationships.

14.Guys think WAY too much. One small
thing a girl does, even if she doesn't
notice it can make the guy think about
it for hours, trying to figure out
what it meant.

15.Guys seek for advice from girls not
other guys. Because most guys think
alike, so if one guy's confused, then
we're all confused.

16.When a guy asks you to leave him
alone, he's just actually
saying, "Please come and listen to me."

17.If a guy starts to talk seriously,
listen to him. It doesn't happen that
often, so when it does, you know
something's up.

18.If your best guy friend seems to
avoid you or is never around when
you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

19.When a guy tells you that you are
beautiful, don't say you aren't. It
makes them want to stop telling you
because they don't want you to
disagree with them.

20.When a guy looks at you for longer
than a second, he's definitely
thinking something.

21.Guys don't like girls who punch
harder than they do.

22.A guy has more problems than you can
see with your naked eyes.

23.Don't be a snob. Guys can be
intimidated and give up easily.

24.Guys talk about girls more than
girls talk about guys.

25.Guys hate rejection, but they hate
being led on even more.

26.If you are going to reject a guy,
just do it. Don't say they are like a
brother or just good friends, it just
hurts even more. Tell them that you
aren't interested in a relationship
and they will respect you.

27.Guys really think that girls are
strange and have unpredictable
decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

28.When a guy sacrifices his sleep and
health just to be with you, he really
likes you and wants to be with you as
much as possible.


guys out there, is this true? drop me your comments on me tagboard. =]=]

Monday, May 12, 2008

emo

Sigh.

I am emo-ing now.

DAMN IT

I AM SWEARING AGAIN.

FUCK.

screwed up

oh my god.

I screwed up real bad.

I was suppose to inform everybody about meeting early in the morning for corrine's birthday last night.

I informed those online.

But i totally forgot about those offline.

Not only that, my phone battery died when I tried to type messages.

Now i made renuka and jenn real angry with me AGAIN.

Why am i always screwing things up??

Why can't i just be real good for one time?

I hate to always be looked upon as incompetent by everybody.

I want to do things right for once.

Where is lady luck when i need her?

Why is she sulking at me?

I really need the luck.

Please spare me some.

Now i am in class alone feeling really guilty.

How i wish i can turn time around and save the whole situation.

I hate myself real bad now.

Damn it.

sigh.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

oh man..

When things are looking up a bit, everything must come crushing down again.

sigh

life is so practical.

i am sick for almost a week already.

yet it looks as if it is not making any progress.

i am still sick.

to add to that, all the problems i faced the last time seem rushing back to me again.

i don't like to be a emo freak.

i want to be a happy freak.

i want to be happy.

sincerely happy.

i am trying.

trust me i am.

so many issues.

no wonder nobody wants me.

it is just too much to cope i guess.

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY

When you were 1 yr old, she fed you and bathed you.
You thanked her by crying all night long.


When you were 2 yrs old, she taught you to walk,
you thanked her by running away when she called.

When you were 3 yrs old, she made all your meals with love.
You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.


When you were 4 yrs old, she gave you some crayons.
You thanked her by colouring the dining room table.


When you were 5 yrs old, she dressed you for the holidays.
You thanked her by plopping into the nearest.


When you were 6 yrs old, she walked you to school.
You thanked her by screaming, "I'm not going!"


When you were 7 yrs old, she bought you a baseball.
You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor's window.


When you were 8 yrs old, she handed you an ice-cream.
You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.


When you were 9 yrs old, she paid for piano lessons.
You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.


When you were 10 yrs old, she drove you all day,
from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday party after another.
You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.


When you were 11 yrs old, she took you and your friends to the movies.
You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.


When you were 12 yrs old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows.
You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.


When you were 13 yrs old, she suggested a haircut.
You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.


When you were 14 yrs old, she paid for a month stay at summer camp.
You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.


When you were 15 yrs old, she came home from work looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.


When you were 16 yrs old, she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.


When you were 17 yrs old, she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.


When you were 18 yrs old, she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.


When you were 19 yrs old, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus
carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying goodbye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.


When you were 20 yrs old, she asked whether you were seeing someone.
You thanked her by saying, "It's none of your business."


When you were 21 yrs old, she suggested certain careers for your future.
You thanked her by saying, "I don't want to be like you!"


When you were 22 yrs old, she hugged you at your college graduation.
You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.


When you were 23 yrs old, she gave you furniture for your first apartment.
You thanked her by telling your friends it was ugly.


When you were 24 yrs old, she met your fiance and asked about your plans for the future.
You thanked her by glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther, please!"


When you were 25 yrs old, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.


When you were 30 yrs old, she called with some advice on the baby.
You thanked her by telling her, "Things are different now."


When you were 40, she called to remind you of a relative's birthday.
You thanked her by asking you were "really busy right now."


When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.


And then, one day, she quietly died.


And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on your heart.


Never forget to love her more than ever if your mother is still around.
And if she's not, remember her unconditional love and pass it on.

Always remember to love thy mother, because you only have one mother in your lifetime!

Thursday, May 08, 2008

LOL

I don't know why.

But I am feeling happy.

For some sort of reason,

I suddenly realised life isn't so frustrating any more.

Today's was estelle's birthday and we all had FUN FUN FUN

we ordered pizza and crazed around, total oblivious to our assigned work (although there wasn't much work anyway)

I really sincerely wish estelle happy 17.

May she have all her wishes come true. :D


P.S. you make me smile! =]

P.P.S. ICE CREAM MAKES ME SMILE! 

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

reflection

I sat down and reflected tonight.

And realised that I am too screwed up with my life.

I am so frustrated.

frustrated with my life.

frustrated with my family.

frustrated with myself.

I am so vulgar nowadays I don't even recognise myself.

I want the old and naive brenda back.

I want my old life back.

I am physically, mentally and emotionally drained.

I hate feeling so emo.

I want to be very happy.

But there are so many issues to settle already.

And before that, I believe I can only try to be happy

For my friends, thanks for all the concern you all showered upon me.

I will be fine.

I just need time.

Now i can really understand what does it mean by ignorance is bliss

Indeed reality proves this saying right. 

Sunday, May 04, 2008

sunday

I should be working today.

but i am sick.

Zzz

Woke up at 11.15 and wondered to myself,

Why the hell do i still ponder over him?

I should just let go man.

He doesn't get it at all.

Most importantly, he does not bother.

I told myself to give him hints.

but i really don't think he gets it.

oh well.

so much for wanting to start afresh.

i think i should just stay single for now.

Saturday, May 03, 2008




wah. officially sick man.

think i was over heated during the sentosa trip

the trip was fun but i was sun burnt! T.T

here are some pictures for those who did not come..

there are still alot but i have not gotten them from the rest.

so..just enjoy these first..lol..


                                             Before going to sentosa, taken in mrt station
                                                        Jenn and me. Hot babe right? =]
                                 Wanling's bf covered in sand. Junhu and estelle sun tanning
                                                                Jenn, me and wanling
                                                    HOT RIGHT!!! GUYS! DON'T DROOL!